How closely is heartache connected to heart’s desires? What about longing, sense of loss, craving for love?
Mirza Ghalib’s poetry sums it beautifully –
Hazaaron khwahishen aisi ke har khwahish pe dam nikle
Bohat niklay mere armaan, lekin phir bhi kam nikle
(Thousands of desires, each worth dying for…
many of them I have realized…yet I yearn for more…)
Buddha said, “Desire is the root cause of all evil.”
Bhagavad Gita Chapter 2 Verse 62 says, “While contemplating the objects of the senses, a person develops attachment for them, and from such attachment lust develops, and from lust anger arises.” Verse 70 of the same chapter talks of the way to achieve peace, “A person who is not disturbed by the incessant flow of desires — that enter like rivers into the ocean, which is ever being filled but is always still — can alone achieve peace, and not the man who strives to satisfy such desires.”
Chapter 3 also talks of desires and lust. Verse 37 and 38 of chapter 3 says, The Blessed Lord said: Born of the activating attribute of Nature (rajo-guna), it is desire, it is anger, (that is the impelling force)—full of unappeasable craving and great evil: know this (two-sided passion) to be the foulest enemy here on earth. As fire is obscured by smoke, as a looking glass by dust, as an embryo is enveloped by the womb, so it (wisdom) is covered by this (desire).
All the philosophies of the world aside, desires are immutable, uncontrollable. How does one get over the heartache associated with life? How does one lick clean the old wounds? Why does it hurt even after almost two decades? Why does one feel happy for others and at the same time, feel sad for what could have been?
Almost two decades hence, I am amazed at the repeated rebound of emotions. Two decades should be a long enough time to move on, to be ready to be happy. And, this flood of emotions does not get contained even after two days of despondence.
This emotion seems to be a repetition…third in the series…but then this emotion is permanent too.
||Sarvam Sri Krishna Arpanamastu||